My life!! =)

katie116 @ 2006-01-28T01:02:00

2006-01-28T06:08:25Z

i dont really know my feeling bc there is one thing that is making me really happy =) and also the fact that getting back an old friend that i have truly missed. so that is making me happy. but other people are just not. i dont even know. write notes to make me feel bad, put me on these little tests? who are you guys? good night. worst stressful week of my life!!

sorry..

2006-01-10T01:47:25Z

ok well last entry was kinda weird i know. sorry i was just upset when i was typing it half way through. but thanks to my amazing friends i dont care anymore. yesterday i went to church and then to hop and haleys bday party. then iwent to work. it was fun. haha kinda weird some parts. but put me in a good mood =) which kinda creeps me out. haha watever. so i came home and couldnt really fall alseep so i called my sister and talked to her. haha then i talked to my brother and found out some stuff. weirddd!! so today school was pretty cool. wasnt that bad. 4th period was amazing. tonys comments made me like pee myself. haha he is so funny. so then i had practice came home. ran out to get some things and now here i am. i had a phone conversation with john carlson tonight. haha he is a weird kid. we talked about stamps and annie brushing her hair. it was fuunny. so thats about all for my life right now. haha

something is kinda bothering me but i dont want to talk about it!

=)

2006-01-07T20:39:15Z

ok so i have been thinking a lot lately. one of my friends gave me a CD. it has some really good songs on it and i have been listening to it nonstop. the lyrics made me think alot so im going to write some lyrcis and waht i thought about it.

"time is a wheel in constant motion always moving us along. Who wants to look back on the years and wonder where those years have gone?" this made me think. why spend my time upset and depressed when there are good things out there. people have more problems then i do. i KNOW that for a fact so just act upon the good things bc if i sit here worrying about the bad things and how depressed i am, than my life is just wasting away and i dont want to sit back on the years aond wonder where they all went.

"It's like you're always stuck in second gear. When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year. But ... I'll be there for you. When the rain starts to pour, I'll be there for you Like I've been there before I'll be there for you 'cause you're there for me too." this made me realize how much i love my friends. i mean i said i didnt have any friends. but the ones i have are the best. i love them so much and anytime i can help you guys, im here.

well i was really excited today until something just happened. so forget it. my mood just turned for the worse. i cant finish this i dont want to talk to anyone.

katie day and night =)

2005-12-30T05:41:44Z

ok the last couple days have been gone minus a few minor detials. i have talked a lot with annie and mackenzie i love those girls =) yesterday i went out with katie and michelle. i drove katies car. haha it was funny we went to the mall, starbuck, katies to stalk someone ;-), walmart!! haha i love those girls. it was soo funn!!! so then i came home and went to bed. today i woke up and went shopping with the one and only katie critell. fun times as normal. she broke the tihng at kohls, panera and the comments, hair cut, the mall, laureen, and the car accident we saw!! =) i love you katie thanks for a GREAT day!! so then i came home and showered to get the little hairs off my neck from my hair cut (4 in cut off by the way) and went and picked up katie. we went to get some food and bring some to michelle then back to her house. we each made a pillow and then trev and kam came over. it was fun, i havent seen them for awhile. good times =) ;-) so then they left and i decided to leave so katie could go to bed. so i came home and here i am watching a movie with my sister but she left. ashley called but like hung up or soemthing and then carmine called haha funniest convo ever. hes just a litte bit. haha he is a funny kid. so other than that i work tomorrow. 11:30-7 if anyone wants to come visit. =)

i guess close friends just arent close forever. but just remember im here. friends are forever and forever never ends. maybe one day our friendship will go back but until then we just have to deal with this.

friends have been on my mind for awhile. i have a couple new friends popping up and i love them to death. they care and show they care so much, always listening and even if we dont hang out they are still there. you guys know who you are. thanks i love you!

katies comments today at lunch and shopping made my life a million times better =)

p.s. i hate whores

so stupid.

2005-12-28T16:23:10Z

i think i just lost my only true best friend i ever had. im so fucking stupid i hate myself.

edit: see told everyone opening up does NOTHING but cause trouble. its supposed to feel good to get things out well it just made me feel worse. so im ofically done opening up to people starting now.

merry christmas

2005-12-27T04:32:42Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
yesterday was christmas. cute? i know. It was a good christmas actually. xmas eve.. haha fun times. my family is NUTS! santa didnt come to the party =( first time ever. kinda sad actually. but oh well. then i went to bed and carly woke me up. we opened gifts. i got some clothes, mp3 player, and a couple other stuff. some people got a lot of stuff but we cant, and im prefectly fine with that. the older u get the less presents and i think its bc u understand wat is going on in the family and stuff. its hard to understand unless you are in the family. its tough but we make it through =) so then we went to church and came home and we just relaxed all day. =) i watched a movie with carly and then put some songs on my mp3 player and got ready and went to the movies. colleen was working so i talked to her when the movie was done for a little. it was a cute movie. cheaper by the dozen 2!! then i slept at ashleys. she brought me home this morning and i got ready and went to work. after work i went to linda and bills. fun times. haha opening gifts = amazing!! so after that ashley came and picked me up and we went and met up with matt and his friend. we were at caribou and i was laying down when i heard someone say to matt wats up? i looked up and i was like who is that and he said MAKALA!! i dont think i ever got out of a car faster. i RAN over to her. i miss her so much. we are going to hang out soon tho =) in SEEEEEPHEN!! fun times in the summer. so then me ash matt and cameron went to steak and shake. i didnt talk.. i dont know it was weird or something. just too much on my mind and i had nothing to say. so then ashley took me home and i showered and here i am.

i have to be at work at 8 tomorrow. work is going good. today was really good. i actually did stuff. i didnt have to sit behind the counter. i really liked it. =) i got to use the sticker gun for most of the day. woah i had fun with that =) haha my mangers are awesome. they are a lot of fun. we just mess around and stuff. i work about three days a week so it isnt bad at all. my feet just hurt so bad. im not used to being on my feet that much. but its ok. its worth it every two weeks when the paycheck comes =) so i have nothing to complain about with that!!

the rest of this week should be fun, i work tomorrow till 3:30. then i think i might go out with katie. i miss her. i havent seen her in awhile. its nuts!! then wednesday im off. probably go to lunch with someone then and thursday im going out with katie=) we aregoing to lunch, getting my hair cut, and shopping probably. that will be a fun time had by ALL!! then friday i work 11:30-7 then who knows.

jacked up season finale was on tonight. me and tony talked about it already. haha i love that kid he is like my best friend!

speaking about friends. i guess my view on some friends change. i just realize who my realy friends are. i guess that is what i was thinking about tonight. things were weird now between some friends. and i guess i should talk about it with them and i will when the time is right. i jsut have to think of how to say what i want to say!

well im done now. hope everyone has a good break =)

katie116 @ 2005-11-27T22:17:00

2005-11-28T03:23:02Z

sometime im stupid. im fooled by the people that i think care. just when i think i can open up, im shut down again. screw it im done!

mooney is going to state. again!! =) two years in a row baby. only school around here that can say that bitches!

this weekend overall= sucked!

some highlights: friday night, katies house tonite and that good CD she made me, mooney going to state, phone calls that make me smile =) *secret that no one knows about ;-)*
some stuff that sucked: people that dont care, thanksgiving, short 15 dollars today, crying today.

hope everyone else had a good weekend.

all i want for christmas is you* (no one knows who tho.. hehe)

friends only!

2005-09-01T00:01:05Z

im sorry but from now on this is:

FRIENDS ONLY!!

katie116 @ 2005-08-25T17:26:00

2005-08-25T22:00:54Z

wow i havent updated this for awhile. a lot has happened since then but dont worry i wont bore you with what happened. haha well i went to camp. the poconos they were ok. i dont like it there but i made the best of it bc i had to be there and i didnt have any other choice. I love the cheerleaders tho. so the last night was the best night with the talent show. haha amazing!! so i came home on monday and when i got to my house ashley was here with food from her mom =) how cute is that? haha i love that entire family ( like her brother, lexi, her sister in law, and her mom) ALL of them. they are so sweet. But ya me and ashley watched laguna then she left bc i was really tired. So i went to bed and woke up and had to go to school to show some new junior girl around. then i went to say bye to shawna. that was so sad i cried. then i had to go back to school to teach the freshman the fight song and stuff and then we had practice then i came home. I sat around and then went to the eye doctor and got new contacts. then i came home and got ready for my first day at school. Yesterday really wasnt bad. my classes arent that bad i mean they all require work but i tihnk it will be ok. we have a test in AP history every three days. haha that sucks!! first one tomorrow. crazy i know. haha i went to get my shoes yesterday for cheerleading. they are ugly but tim weaver was there i dont think he remembered me but i laughed then on the way home me and my mom were at a red light and we saw matt =) i havent seen him for awhile. but ya other than that yesterday was good. Today we had a rally. It was so weird. haha the fightsong didnt work haha so we like kinda made it up haha but its ok. So tomorrow is friday and out first football game =) im so excitied. i think im going out to eat after i dont know tho yet.
so comment please!! it would be appreciated. haha

when i see you, i think to myself - does he ever
say to himself; "OMG, THERE SHE iS" ?

i hate being stressed...

2005-08-18T19:16:05Z

first of all i would like to start out with... where the hell is katie critell? like i miss her and she disappered. well i love u katie whereever u are. haha

ok yesterday i went to the mall with ashley. that was fun. haha saw a few people that i have missed and love. haha!! woo they were hott ;-) the conversation in front of gloria jeans was priceless haha.. and i got to see MOLLY!! aww i love her. so then i came home and got dressed to go to calling hours. =/ it was really sad but i got to see callie who i dont even know the last time i saw her. she did a really cute thing for her grandpa she was supposed to be in a pagent on sunday and her grandpa died on sunday. so she didnt want to do the pagent then she went home put on her grandpas marine core uniform and went to the pagent in that and they made an anouncment that she was dressed like that in honor of her grandfather passing away that afternoon. it was really cute. so then i came home and bre and kara came over for a little bit. then we took marnie to her friends house and i came home.

i went to bed early last night and thought a lot. im really stressed about a lot of things. I dont want to go at all tomorrow morning. i hated it! it sucked. the moment i got there i wanted to turn around and go home. but i will be stuck in the pocono mountains till monday. i come home monday and i have to do this thing at fresham oriantation tuesday then go back to school on tuesday. im not ready for school. i didnt read the books and my luck ill have english the first half of the year. i dont have shoes and there is no time to get them now for the first day. Im really worried about my schedule. i dont know im just hate this feeling. i need to get through this weekend first and i know that isnt going to happen. I dont want to do this. Maybe the girls will make it better. i dont know im just not looking foward to this. im done complaining tho.

comment or something.

so long sweet summer =(

just some thoughts...

2005-08-16T17:22:14Z

so i have been thinking a lot lately. and i think last night ashley finally caught on. so im going to write about it before she asks and i have to tell her. bc its easier for me to write it in here then say it. this way when we talk i dont have to say it bc she already knows what it is. just trust me, its better this way. haha

ok so normally you tend to lose ur closeness with friends in during school. well the friends u dont go to school with but this summer is when i lost that closeness. i minded but it was just i had such a fun summer i didnt want to have to worry about it. So i put it off. Now i think its too late. I mean three people have come to me saying we arent as good as friends now. And i mean i notice it too, its not jsut you guys. i dont know. i mean when me and conger talked about it we kinda fixed it. We talk everyday now we are planning on hanging out. It just kinda fixed itself. When colleen said something we just put it off like during school it will change. And then sharon said stuff and we talked about it too. A lot has made me think. i love ashley to death and she is serioulsy my best friend i ever had but i miss other people i used to be able to talk to. I used to talk to matt about everything and now we cant even hold a conversation. Thats stupid. It pisses me off. Im blaming myself on that one. Maybe im thinking too much into it which i tend to do but im afraid im pushing all my friends away. i dont know what to think.

Im also afraid that the school year is going to seperate me and ashley. and i guess i shouldnt worry about this until it comes time to do it. but i dont know.

i guess that is all i have been thinking about now. so im done.

i am sorry to anyone i pushed away. i miss you guys and i love you.

time for an update!

2005-08-15T18:25:31Z

hmm its been awhile. so lets see

thursday- hung out with a friend. i dont really want to talk about that. its screwed up and im not worrying about it anymore. im over it.

friday- firday was a fun day. haha lets see. i dont remember what i did during the day. but i went and helped my mom clean the office during the evening then i went to ashleys. me and jim faught over who was going to wish ashley a happy birthday first. So we didnt tell him what clock we were going by. so for three min he said happy birthday ashley happy birthday ashley and right at 12 he stopped for some reason and i screamed it! and i won =) so then ashley opened her gifts and i went home!

saturday- i woke up and went to the car wash. it was boring. not very many people were there this week. oh well. so after the car wash i went shopping. kohls had a big sale and i baught this cordory jacket. i love it and then went to old navy and baught 5 new school shirts. So all i have left to get it shoes and a purse. =) so then i didnt do anything saturday night.

sunday- i woke up went to church and then ashley came to pick me up. I went to mountineer with her mom, her, lisa, david, and lexi. Me and ashley sat in the trunk. but its not like a trunk trunk they have an envoy so its like the back with no seats. haha but it was funny. then we were there and ashley bet on some horses and stuff. then we went back to ashleys and sat around then had dinner and cake. her mom is seriously the best cook. omg i love eating there! haha but then after that me and ashley went out. we drove to josh's house. HAHAHAHA ashley was hyper so it was very interesting. haha. then we went to doms to her her present. it was a game called who is the biggest pervert. we we sat on his porch and played the game for awhile. it was intesting and fun. haha. then i came home and went to bed.

today- i woke up and showered and that fun stuff. then i found out my house phone is broken. there is no dial tone and then when it rings it rings once but u cant answer it. but its like half of a ring haha. my mom said is sounds like a faggy ring. it was pretty funny. haha so ya then i went to go get subway but i couldnt bc they dont accept 50 dollar bills. ok i never have any money. my mom pays me and gives me two 50s why i dont know and i couldnt even get lunch. i was so pissed. haha so ya tonite is laguna monday! woo i think my two sisters are coming over. haha ashley and makala. woo!!!! i really want to go to the mall tho. i need a purse. so maybe we can do that before laguna or ill go by myself.

i found out when i came home last night that my aunts dad died. he wasnt sick or anything. He went outside and came back in and was like i dont feel good then had a heart attack and died. I feel so bad. He wasnt even sick. and i guess it just makes me realize how grateful i am. You never know when the last time you will see someone is. so i always make sure the last time i say is i love you. I think calling hours are tomorrow so ill probably go up to alliance tomorrow night for those. but i feel bad bc we have cheerleading practice and we go to camp this weekend. im so not looking forward to that. but ok this is enough im going to go watch bambi with carly. haha i love this movie. but its sad when bambis mom dies. =/

comment please =)

I LOVE ASHLEY CONGER! we are hanging out this week.

I LOVE THESE!!

2005-08-10T20:34:27Z

so i like to do this after a entry like the last one hoping people dont read the other one =)

Y 0 U
[ .01. ] first name: Kathryn
[ .02. ] middle name: Marie
[ .03. ] last name: Berlon
[ .04. ] nickname(s): katie, my dads nickname for me that im not going to say, KA, sister, thats all haha
[ .05. ] gender: Girl
[ .06. ] birthday: November 6
[ .07. ] height: 5'2ish
[ .08. ] hair color: red
[ .09. ] eye color: blue
[ .010. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: yes
[ .011. ] do you have braces: no but i did
[ .012. ] is your hair long or short: long but i want it longer
[ .013. ] where were you born: Youngstown, Oh
[ .014. ] current location: boardman
[ .015. ] zodiac sign: Scorpio
[ .016. ] how many languages do you know: 1 and a couple words of latin. haha
[ .017. ] what laungage do you want to learn: spanish so i know if ashley and her mom are talking about me when im there. haha
[ .018. ] bad habits: biteing my nails, caring too much, thinking too much,
[ .019. ] piercing you have: ear lobes
[ .020. ] piercing you want: belly button
[ .021. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .023. ] today: wednesday
[ .024. ] today's date: Aug. 10
[ .025. ] the time: 3:51 PM
[ .026. ] ready for a bunch more questions: hell ya

F A M i L Y
[ .027. ] mother's name: Colleen
[ .028. ] father's name: Victor
[ .029. ] brother's name: Mike and Vic
[ .030. ] sister's name: Marnie and Carly
[ .031. ] favorite aunt: umm dont have one but there are some more then others that i like
[ .032. ] favorite uncle: again dont have one
[ .033. ] favorite grandparent: i only have one =/ and probably not for long =( but my other grandma i was her favorite and i loved her soo much
[ .036. ] worst relative: dont have one i am agry at some but i still love them
[ .037. ] best relative: dont have one all my cousins are crazy tho haha
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: ya most of the time
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: my brother sometimes

P E T S
[ .040. ] do you have any pets: no but carly has a hamster
[ .041. ] what are their names: its name is umm peanut
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: hamster

S C H 0 0 L
[ .043. ] are you still in school: ya
[ .044. ] did you drop out: no
[ .045. ] current gpa: 4.0ish
[ .046. ] favorite grade: dont have one yet but if i had to pick sophmore
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 8th grade
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: Miss Rafidi
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: bacha but she is a really good teacher
[ .050. ] favorite subject: um i dont know dont really have one
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: english or history
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: bring it, my mom still packs it =) haha
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: i cheer, does that count?
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: just cheerleading
[ .055. ] are/was you popular: hahah NO!
[ .056. ] favorite dance: ---
[ .057. ] favorite memory: the state football game last year
[ .058. ] favorite memory you want to have: prom
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: beginning of 8th grade with all those problems
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: my like shaking and crying in biology freshman year

F A V 0 R i T E S
[ .061. ] number: 7
[ .062. ] letter: Z bc its like never used i feel bad for it
[ .063. ] shoes: i hate shoes
[ .064. ] saying(s): i dont have a favorite one
[ .065. ] TV show: Laguna Beach/ Real World
[ .066. ] sport: umm if cheerleading doesnt count i like watching football
[ .067. ] vegetable: cucumbers haha
[ .068. ] fruit: peaches
[ .069. ] movie: omg so many. Billy Madison, Water boy, Dirty Dancing, so many more
[ .070. ] magazine: Cosmo
[ .071. ] actor: Chad Michael Murray
[ .072. ] actress: Julia Roberts
[ .073. ] candy: FUN DIP! haha
[ .074. ] gum: trident citrus kind
[ .075. ] scent: FIERCE!! HAHA
[ .076. ] candy bar: kit kat
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: choclate chip cookie dough
[ .078. ] color: yellow and pink
[ .079. ] season: Fall
[ .080. ] holiday: Christmas
[ .081. ] band: i dont know
[ .082. ] singer: kelly clarkson maybe
[ .083. ] group: i dont know
[ .084. ] rapper: MIKE JONES! haha jk i dont know
[ .085. ] type of music: i like all kinds but rap
[ .086. ] thing in your room: my dory
[ .087. ] place to be: ashleys house. haha
[ .089. ] tv channel: MTV or abcfamily
[ .090. ] junk food: SCOOBY DOO FRUIT SNACKS
[ .091. ] overall food: dont have one
[ .092. ] store: DOLLAR STORE omg i love that place
[ .093. ] hangout: Mall or ashleys house or just randomly finding a place haah
[ .094. ] fast food: chick-fil-a
[ .095. ] restaurant: appleebees OLIVE GARDEN!
[ .096. ] shape: umm diamond or star
[ .097. ] time of day: night
[ .098. ] country: AUSTRALIA
[ .099. ] state: i dont know?
[ .100. ] boys name: umm not sure
[ .101. ] girls name: dont know
[ .102. ] mall: Polaris maybe? or the Ross Park mall
[ .103. ] video game: sonic
[ .104. ] shampoo: dove
[ .105. ] board game: dont have one used to be monoply or scrabble. haha
[ .106. ] computer game: SLINGO yay ally
[ .107. ] car: dont have one
[ .108. ] music video: i never see any! haha
[ .109. ] swear word: i have been using the F word ALOT lately
[ .110. ] word: like
[ .111. ] month: November
[ .112. ] cartoon character: doug funny haha
[ .113. ] scary movie: umm i dont know..
[ .114. ] team: DUKE for basketball
[ .115. ] possession: my friends if that counts. haha

WHATS THE FiRST THiNG Y0U TH0UGHT 0F WHEN Y0U HEAR..
[ .116. ] eminem: eww
[ .117. ] dog: smokey
[ .118. ] hot: cold
[ .119. ] britney spears: crossroads
[ .120. ] nsync: omg i miss them
[ .121. ] real world: danny and melinda
[ .122. ] orange: juice
[ .123. ] choice: huh?
[ .124. ] fuck: you
[ .125. ] bisexual: haha [insert a certain name here.. haha mac and ash]
[ .126. ] black: white
[ .127. ] icq: huh?
[ .128. ] insane clown posse: wow
[ .129. ] linkin park: hhmm
[ .130. ] jack: shit
[ .131. ] rainbow: it hurts so good. haha andy milinakus show!
[ .133. ] cucumber: omg i love them
[ .134. ] shark: RUN!
[ .135. ] lifehouse: you and me
[ .136. ] bat: man
[ .137. ] leather: pleather
[ .138. ] whip: cream
[ .139. ] america: USA
[ .140. ] water: wet
[ .141. ] volcano: vessuvious
[ .142. ] rock or rap: rock
[ .143. ] rock or pop: umm i like both
[ .144. ] rock or r&b: umm both
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: pop
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: R&B
[ .148. ] rap or metal: neither metal sometimes i guess
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: both
[ .150. ] pop or metal: pop
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: r&b
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: limp bizkit i guess
[ .153. ] tool or korn: neither
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: uhh
[ .155. ] hot or cold: cold
[ .156. ] winter or summer: Summer
[ .157. ] spring or fall: fall
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: brittney?
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: neither
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: none
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage: kittie
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1: mtv
[ .163. ] buffy or angel: Buffy
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: i love both of them
[ .165. ] football or basketball: Football
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: Summer MICHAEL PHELPS!
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: skiing
[ .168. ] rollerblading or skateboarding: rollerblading
[ .169. ] black or white: white
[ .170. ] orange or red: orange
[ .171. ] yellow or green: yellow
[ .172. ] purple or pink: Pink
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: Slipknot
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: pac sun
[ .175. ] inside or outside: Outside
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: Cell phone
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: Pencil
[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: Charlie's Angels
[ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: Scooby Doo their fruit snacks are the best
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: i used to watch pokemon hahaha
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: i acutally saw one star wars haha
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: piecings
[ .184. ] prep or punk: prep
[ .185. ] slut or whore: slut

P R i V A T E L i F E
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: No
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: sorta
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: family and friends
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: no
[ .190. ] how many people have you liked: who counts?
[ .191. ] who was your first crush: colin durina hahahaah
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: none
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: umm
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: ---
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: dont even talk about it haha
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: no
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: no
[.198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: ya
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: no haha if u want to see one ask
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: both
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: ya
[ .202. ] are you still friends: kinda
[ .203. ] so moving along..do you smoke: no
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: NO
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: no
[ .206. ] how about a little x: no
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: nope
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: i ahte the taste of beer
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: i dont drink but that would be me
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: never had it
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: dont drink
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: NONE
[ .213. ] have you ever drank Hpnotiq: no
[ .214. ] if yes, when was the last time you got some: never did

W 0 U L D Y 0 U EVER..
[ .215. ] bungee jump: no
[ .216. ] sky dive: omg i would die haha
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: i would love to, its like a dream
[ .218. ] scuba dive: ya maybe
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: probably not
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: No
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: No
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: No
[ .223. ] cross-dress: hahah guys clothes are comfy haha ally
[ .224. ] lie to the police: maybe
[ .225. ] run from the police: no
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: haha i have
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: i dont know maybe
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: umm no?
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: i would feel bad
[ .230. ] streak: oh def

Y 0 U R F R I E N D S
[ .231. ] best friends: Ashley, Shawna, and Kara
[ .232. ] known longest: Shawna
[ .233. ] wish you talked to more: shawna
[ .234. ] wish you saw more: shawna
[ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: a good amount
[ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: haha colleen haha no offense
[ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: ashley
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': no
[ .239. ] craziest: hmm.. haha all of them
[ .240. ] loudest: probably me haha no i dont know
[ .241. ] shyest: um i dont know
[ .242. ] best hair: erika
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: all of them mkae me laugh but esp ashley
[ .244. ] best eyes: alyssa
[ .243. ] best body: hmm i dont know
[ .246. ] most athletic: uhh i dont know?
[ .247. ] sex symbol: haha ash has been told she can be a porn star
[ .248. ] hot tempered: brian i agree with ally hha
[ .249. ] most impatient: umm i dont know maybe ashley haah
[ .250. ] shortest: me haah
[ .251. ] tallest: shawna
[ .252. ] talented: um everyone is talented
[ .253. ] best singer: ashley ... duh
[ .254. ] skinniest: all pretty skinny
[ .255. ] nicest: they are all nice
[ .256. ] best personality: ashley
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: i dont know?

HAVE Y0U EVER:
[ .258. ] flashed someone: haha many times
[ .259. ] told a person how you felt bout them: ya
[ .260. ] been to michigan: actually i have just to eat wendys tho haha
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: no
[ .263. ] skateboarded: no
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: no but i want to haha
[ .265. ] stolen anything: ya
[ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: No
[ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: no
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: no i suck at aim
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: no
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: no
[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: no
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: umm no
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: no
[ .275. ] been to a concert: ya
[ .276. ] been to another country: ya
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: ya
[ .278. ] got pulled over: no
[ .279. ] got in a car accident: no
[ .280. ] broke a law: ya
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: no
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: no but thought about it before in 8th grade im over that tho
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: ya
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: um not when we were friends. haha
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: ya
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways?: hahaha yess the cake company haha SHAWNA!

0 P I N I 0 N S
[ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: ehh ok i guess
[ .288. ] about boy bands: haha i love bsb
[ .289. ] about flag burning: not good
[ .290. ] of the war on terrorists: think its dumb
[ .291. ] about suicide: horrible
[ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: annoys me u can say ur poinion but dont make me think the same thing
[ .293. ] about abortion: i dont agree with it
[ .294. ] about rock/metal music: its good
[ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: hopefully out of here
[ .296. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: hopefully all of them but def ashley, kara, and shawna

W H A T D I D Y 0 0 H D 0
[ .297. ] last birthday: applees and slept at colleens
[ .298. ] yesterday: y, practice
[ .299. ] last weekend: i dont remember im sure i was out with ashley
[ .300. ] christmas: went to aunt eilieens
[ .301. ] thanksgiving: was here wtih the fam
[ .302. ] new year's: CONGERS HOUSE BITCHES!!
[ .303. ] halloween: passed out candy
[ .304. ] easter: chrch and not sure
[ .305. ] valentine's day: school haha

T H E L A S T
[ .306. ] thing you ate: ramen noodles
[ .307. ] thing you drank: iced tea
[ .308. ] thing you wore: inside highschool football shirt and red shorts
[ .309. ] place you went: marcs
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: ear lobes
[ .311. ] person you saw: marnie
[ .312. ] person you kissed: blank hahaahah
[ .313. ] person you fxcked: no one
[ .314. ] person you talked to: trevor
[ .315. ] song you heard: full house theme song
[ .316. ] what are you eating: nothing
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: nothing
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: shorts and a shirt
[ .319. ] any shoes on: no
[ .320. ] hat: no
[ .321. ] listening to: full house theme song
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: trevor
[ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: Nope

Y or N
[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: No
[ .325. ] do you like cows: i have some.. haha
[ .326. ] are you a bxtch: can be
[ .327. ] are you artistic: no
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: no
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: no used to be tho
[ .330. ] can you ski: no
[ .331. ] are you british: no but i wish i was just for the accent
[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: haha hahaha that made me laugh
[ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: omg yes
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: ya
[ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: no
[ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice in wonderland: hahah maybe i heard they were
[ .337. ] are you straight: ya
[ .338. ] are you stupid, insane, and another physically handicapped: probably haha
[ .339. ] are you nice: ya or at least try to be
[ .340. ] are you naughty: haha
[ .341. ] are you short: ya
[ .342. ] are you tall: NO!!!!!
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: i dont think so but i own a hot pink bra!
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: no does anyone?
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: no
[ .346. ] are you evil : no
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: haha ya dom
[ .348. ] is britney a whore: sure
[ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: what? haha
[ .350. ] am i annoying you?: no
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: Not really
[ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: probably
[ .353. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: haha ;-)
[ .354. ] this is over are you happy now hahah: sure its dinner time

that was fun. thanks ally =) i love u and miss u

sorry but its time to explode!

2005-08-10T15:55:20Z

sorry everyone but i just need to get this out. You might think its stupid or whatever but i really dont care. I hate people. I hate girls mostly. Not just teenage girls. i hate women i hate little girls i hate teenage girls. I fucking hate them. And maybe some of you know who im talking about. If not ill be sure to give out clues. Lets see the lady from the Y hates me, i dont know why she does or even who she is but the feeling mutual so whatever. My cheerleading coach i swear hates me. But i mean that can be mutual if it doesnt stop. Then i think someone reads this that i dont really like right now. So i wont give any clues to who that person is other then YOU ARE RUDE! and i cant stand people that are rude. i was really thinking about that last night and it pisses me off. ugh!! i also hate how people cant let things go and keep bringing them up. That bothers me a lot. LET IT GO! i also hate how people can sit there and tell you how you are one of their best friends and they can tell u a lot and shit and you should hang out more but when you ask them to hang out they cant. Who knows what they are doing. Sometimes hanging out with their boyfriend which i totally understand or at their friends boyfriends then comes home and tells me how bored they were. or with the most random friend out there. but no time to hang out with me?! im sorry but that really bothers me. So next time you want to hang out i might not be able to! there are many other people i hate that really got to me yesterday. and i dont know why yesterday but it was a bad night. I really tried to keep this one in but i couldnt. Its not only girls i hate although they are the majority bc they are two faced bitches. The other day annie asked me for like friends or whatever who i like better girls or guys. And i did think about it for about a second and knew right away it was girls. Guys dont cause this drama. There is this one guy that loves causing drama but i love him so its ok. But right now i can only think of no joke three girls that im not bothered by or i strongly dislike. so to those three girls. i love you! and thanks. everyone else SCREW YOU! and serioulsy dont talk to me if u are going to talk about me to someone else. Like i dont need that and i dont need you. So ya that might sound really stupid but it all gets to me and last night i just lost it. So bye everyone have a good wednesday.

i need out of this house or somehow to get my mind off of things.

You're an idiot jerk, jerk idiot!!

2005-08-09T17:27:29Z

alriteee!! so this week has been ok so far. lets see. Yesterday i woke up at 11:30 and had to take carlys helmet down to her. So little jer took me down bc he was driving and i didnt want to walk. haha so then i visited a little with my aunt and her neighbor then i walked home. [they only live 17 houses down] so then i came home and i cleaned the family room and just sat around. Then my dad came home from work so we went up to rite aid to get the car off my mom and i went to vics house to sit with him. He got suregry on his thumb on his birthday :-( how sad is that? but jamie wanted to cook him a cake so she went to the store and i sat with him in case he needed anything. i know im such a good sister. haha ya so then we started talking about dane cook and he hadnt heard the new CD. so after i went home i burned it for him and went back over and gave him it as his birthday present. haha he liked it so that is all that matters :-) So i went and picked my mom up from work and then came back here to wait for some people to come over.

i had some girls over to watch laguna beach. It was ashley, makala, colleen, and anne. Conger and emma and mackenzie were going to come but they couldnt =( so ya makala sang her little this little worm was the big grandpa [insert makalas weird voice] then colleen and anne came back with the pizza and we watched laguna. colleen and anne like kristin so that didnt go over real well with me and ashley and mac. So we made fun of kristin a lot and said how lc is sooooo much better. haha it was pretty funny. We even made a LC sign and hung it up next to the note ashley wrote mac. haha then ashley left to go to bed and we just kinda sat around till i had to take makala home. We talked on the way home. i love her so much! we are starting to hang out soon. And we are taking out sisters to the movies and lunch this week :-) i know we are the best sisters. the theme of the day is sisters so we are going to see sisters of the traveling pants. haha bc me and mac are sisters, so ya. it was a fun night and if u want to come next monday u have to like LC! haha only rules. haha

annie was going to come too!! but she couldnt either :-( in case anyone wanted to know me and annie have been friends for a long time. i missed her last night but some other time, maybe next week? who knows! but we are going to start going on walks and eat scooby snacks.

which reminds me. im sueing those people. they never have enough reds. but they have enough yellow and green and purple to make me sick. and im all out of those snacks and im going crazy. my mom needs to bring some home from work or im going to die tonite!

haha but ya ashley started band camp and she was showing me what she had to do last night.. ch ch ch ch ch PRIDE! hahahaha i cant wait to drive past them and make fun. haha i love you ashley!!

today i went to the y then took carly down to my aunts and then went to the store. Im almost done with ashleys gift for her birthday on SATURDAY!! i baught this one tihng today. and its a joke but like its not a joke. Hard to explain ill explain once ashley sees it tho. haha. she wont get it and think its stupid but i dont care. haha but ya im going to go wrap some presents and stuff i have practice tonite. blah!!

comment please! :-)

do this!! :-)

2005-08-07T23:40:23Z

def stole this from some people.

post annoymously..if you want but you dont have to!

1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint to who you are.

Its weird how things work out.

2005-08-07T19:08:08Z

OK lets see. Thursday was the last day of cheerleading camp. It was interesting. We had to dance. Dana stuck all her stunts. So that was good. =) i heard the dance looked sweet so i dont know well see i guess later on this summer. Then later on that night i went out with ash and vicki. It was fun i guess. Kinda weird but i love both of them. Vicki is crazy its so funny. Then i fell asleep in the car on the way home. haha So then i got up early on friday adn went to niles with ashley. it was fun haha. mike from charleys!! WHAT?! WHAT?! haha but then i came home and just sat around until anne came over. I dont know, we talked and it was nice. Bc we are both scared of the same thing and it was nice to have someone to talk to about it. But im being positive about it and trying not to think or worry about it. So ya then she went home and i just kinda went to sleep and stuff. SO then i had to be up early on Saturday to go to cheer practice with three ohio state cheerleaders. OMG they were soo funny!!! and the one was sooo hot. but i seriously loved them. Then we had our car wash. that was funny. haha adrienne was dressed up as the cardinal so anyone who drove past us on 224 saw her. haha!! she was cute tho :-) so then after that i came home and went with my mom to clean the office. then i came home and got ready and went to dinner with bill linda carly and my mom. We went to nancys place. it was good. so then i came home and anne and colleen stopped over and we waited for ashley to get here. then we went out and ashley came back here for the night. We cooked corn on the cob and rice at like 2 am with marnie. It was fun. haha marnie i love her she is so funny. So ya then today we went to church.

I think its funny how things work out. This past week i have been thinking about a lot of stuff. Nothing that is like depressing me or anything just thinking. After watching real world last tuesday i have found myself thinking about me and my moms relationship a lot. And i dont meant to it just kinda happens. Freshman year and the beginning of sophmore year there wasnt a day me and my mom didnt fight. We just faught about anything and everything. It was a big thing each time. We made little things big tihngs. Then easter came around and it was lent and i had to do something for lent being a practicing catholic. I always suck at doing that bc i can never keep what i give up. So i gave a lot of thought to it and decided i would try to stop fighting with my mom. And its weird bc ever since then we havent really faught. When we dont agree on things we talk about it but we dont like fight like we used to at all. And Im really happy thats how we are. Bc like dannys mom my mom can be taken away from me at any time. and i always want to be on good terms with her bc i serioulsy love her so much. I talk to her about a lot of stuff and im just glad that im not like some people are with their parents. Also this week i thought about friendships and stuff. I seem to never be able to keep a good friendship. And its not always my fault although sometimes it is. I mean me and shawna were best friends for years and then in one year we stopped talking all together we stopped hanging out everything changed. Yes shawna is still one of my best friends but like everything changed. I dont know, like people are like oh i have been best friends with this person since i was little. We were in kindergarten and we became really good friends. blah blah blah. but idont have that, and im not saying anything bad bc i love my best friend and i dont think things are going to change with that well at least i hope not. but i mean i dont know how to put it.

So for some reason i dont have a problem going to church. I actaully like it sometimes. I mean call me weird or watever, but in the end its God you are going to have to face. And i belive that. Today it was weird bc during the homily the priest was talking about problems that we cant fix ourselves. the priest said three things to do to help this was 1) know your limitations 2) talk to something and 3) look at the long picture. And i have been thinking about that a lot. He was right. If you think about it. you do need ot know your limitations. and as far as talking to people. even though people say it doesnt, IT DOES! and look at the long picture. In 100 years, are people even going to know you existed? i dont know i just think he had a point, and i think its ironic that he talked about that this week after i thought all week. crazy wack, i know! but ya make fun of me because i enjoy church, i dont care. I just have this feeling after. a good feeling. I dont know im happy ashley came to church with me tho. i think she should start going again! haha

so ya i have this sister her name is makala!!!! she has crazy and random away messages that i love!! and what is normal? its just another setting on the washing machine! hell ya bitches. so ya me and her we dont read and some other stuff that we do or dont do. haha

but ya tomorrow is laguna monday and people are coming over! so im kinda excited. haha i just hope they come.

well today im just relaxing, so you should come visit me. haha

CRAZY WACk!

2005-08-04T20:32:11Z

ok well this week has been long. lets see
monday-
pictures . they went ok. i hate getting pictures taken bc they always end up so ugly. BLAH so anyways i dont think i did much we had practice monday night but that is about it.

tuesday-
cheerleading camp started. the one for the 7th and 8th graders the mooney girls put on. Um it was a bad day overall. I mean the camp went ok. practice sucked tho.
we got into a lot of trouble and talked about how our attitudes needed to change and stuff. And i think it actually did change in the last two days. I was sleeping by 12 on tuesday.

wednesday- cheerleading camp. This day was much better. i was kinda hyper. we went to the mall for lunch. fun times. haha but ya then i had practice. THat went really well actually we were out of there by 7 and we got there at 6. it was sweet. :-) then i came home showered and was sleeping by 11. fun times. haha

today- cheerleading camp. It was fun today. I dont know why. It was just fun. i think ppl were so tired and just out of it. haha but it was fun. the girls me genna and dana coached won third place. It was fun. haha But after the camp we went to starbucks. me, kara, erika, and marnie and then delhaunty and dana were there. we seriously were so loud and laughed so hard. I dont even know at what. then on the way home me erika and marnie were serioulsy physco. haha but it was funny. we had fun. bc i love all of them!! i love the cheerleaders. we are all like really close. its really cool.

someone else im really close too is ashley. she is there for me through everything. thanks ash i love you.

ya so thats all for this. COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!

ashleys mom is my new best friend

2005-08-01T03:23:14Z

helllllllllllllllllllo?
ok today i went to church came home went to karas which was fun. me and marnie were only over there for a little bit but tori was there so it was fun. haha those girls are crazy. lets see so then i went to the mall and got three of ashleys birthday gifts. im really happy with them =) i was afriad i wasnt going to be able to find something for her but i love the things i found. they fit us! haha and her card is unbelievable! lets see then i went to ashleys and i got there and her brother came over so we all seemed important and sat at the table and talked. i love that family so much! they are like awesome. I also saw ashleys senior pics. they were sooo pretty... aww :-) but ya i feel bad for when jim comes to ohio. haha its going to be funny. haha good luck jim :-) so then me and ashley went swimming for all of 15 min, got out and then we got to sweep the pool. i found it fun ashley found it boring. at one point i was sweeping the pool and her and her mom were in the house. it was like i was at my own freaking house. haha it was funny. then we sat in the gazebo and talked it was fun then we called jim and talked to him for awhile. he is funny. and then her mom called us to dinner. so we had tacos and corn on the cob. it was really good. so then ashley went inside and me and ashleys mom talked. it was really a nice talk. i love her mom like my own mom! she is really funny. so after that we went to get ice cream. all for 15 cents. ya wat now bitches. me and the kid we are tight. i kinda forget his name tho. haha so then we drove around. jeeps are cool. i decided. so ya i kinda fell asleep in my car for a couple minutes. i kinda felt out of place and some stuff so i left haha then we went back to ashleys and i went home.

today much have been compliment katie day. i got dressed for church and my dad siad ilooked like a hooker. ok i had one jeans and a sleeveless top. He overaxagerates. He must not know what a hooker dresses like bc its def not that. then i was putting on sun tan lotion before i left and my mom go katie what is that? so i get worried and im like what and she is like come here and grabs my fat and goes this.. you better lose that and my dad was like told you your cheerleading outfit wouldnt fit. so needless to say i was pretty pissed and with an attitude i say "for your information dad it does fit, now im leaving" and left. but watever. i know im fat but they didnt have to tell me so watever.

cheerleading pics early tomorrow morning so im going to go shower and do my hair and stuff.

tomorrow is laguna beach! hell yes! i think people might come here and watch it again. so if you want to come let me know :-)if i like you enough you can come. haha

k im out. comment or something!

sacriface your body!

2005-07-31T01:55:08Z

ok well the last couple entries were sad.. really sad. today i have been better. not like 100% but ok. i talked to ashley about everything last night. i guess it kinda helped. we wrote down the things on the list they were: 1) friendship with someone 2) friendship with someone else 3) her lj 4) lonely feeling 5) im ugly. ya so all through this me venting she says you should like pay me for this. hahahaha what a great friend i have! ya so then we three wayed jiffer. that was fun..haha

today we got a new car and then went to bill and lindas. it was fun we swam and stuff. then makala and miah came over. but miah had to leave once i got in the pool. not that i meant to get in the pool linda and marnie threw me in picked me up off the chair and threw me in. so if i was in makala was coming in too. haha so bill threw her in. then he jumped in. It was great fun haha i havent seen her forever. i miss her. me and her def need to hang out sometime before summer is over. i love her so much! SACRIFACE YOUR BODY!!

ya so kc is the love of my life!! haha i love her more than anything! and thanks for that part in your journal! everyone should read it bc she is serious about what will happen to you! haha i <3 her a lot!!

so im done. comment please!

a bitchin name for bitchin girls

2005-07-29T16:12:07Z

alrite im really going to try to open up here but it is going to take a lot out of me and i cant promise i will open up fully or at all. i just want to start out with im not mad at anyone but myself. and no one should take this personal. its just how i feel. ok first i talked to a friend today and realized why i dont open up to people. everyone has their own life. i dont want what is bothering me on them too. i would feeel bad. but yet again i want my friends to tell me what is wrong with them bc i feel bad for them. and want to be there for them bc that is what friends are for. LAst night was fun with ashley but towards the end i got bothered not because of anything anyone did just for who i am. i hate this feeling.. yet again i cant tell anyone the feeling bc i cant i try i just cant. i used to tell kara all this stuff but i cant tell her anymore becuase she doesnt understand anymore. no one can understand now. i would tell someone if they understood but they wont and i know they wont so whats the point. i tired talking to ashley about it before but she doesnt understand either. it just sucks. ok new topic i miss two very important friendships. One of them was my fault. and maybe things will go back? or maybe they arent supposed to go back. maybe im not supposed to have that friendship. watever i dont care. i do care actually and thats why it hurts bc that person doesnt want the friendship back bc i can tell, they would do something about it at least and not leave it all up to me. then the other friendship that wasnt me. maybe i played part in it but it was mostly the other person. i miss it so bad. last summer was awesome. whenever i needed to talk i knew i could call them and tell them everything that was bothering me but i cant anymore bc they dont care. and they have a very good way of showing they dont care. I tried talking to them it doesnt help. maybe ill try one more time but its probably useless. cheerleading was horrible last night im not even going to go there. i pretty much got that out with erika last night bc since she is a cheerleader she understands. next thing... i read something today somewhere and it really bothered me bc im not sure if it was about me or not. and i dont want to assume bc you know what happens when you assume you make an ASS out of U and ME. but anyways i just dont think im a good enough friend. im not a good enough anything actually. i always do my best thinking in the shower and today i layed in the shower. yes layed down well the shower was beating down on me. but as i layed there and thought and it seriously was the best time to think. im also babysitting tonite so maybe once the kids go to bed i can think again. at night is when i think bc i have nothing better to do. my stomach has actually hurt the last couple nights. and i cant sleep anymore bc of it. i hate this feeling. watever im done i tried the best i could to open up. sorry for complaining!

FUCK IT!

2005-07-29T05:10:25Z

FUCK IT! FUCK EVERYTHING! I HATE IT ALL!!
ok that is all i have to say. i cant talk to anyone about this bc i dont know how to open up i tried today but it didnt work so i think those three exclamations pretty much sum up how i feel.
comment? only if you want

survey!

2005-07-26T18:22:51Z

i stole this survey from mackenzie. so ya... enjoy

When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at?
- my hair

How much cash do you have on you?
- none im poor and need a job

What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?
- best

Favorite plant?
- for some reason i love forget my nots

4th person on your missed call list?
- kowalczyk.. for some reason i ALWAYS miss her calls. haha

What is your main ring tone on your phone?
- a horse neighing.. LMAO it scares me everyime

What shirt are you wearing?
- none haha i havea sports bra on tho its too hott in my house

Do you "label" yourself?
- not really

Name brand of your shoes currently wearing?
- i dont have shoes on

Bright or Dark Room?
- dark

What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
- mackenzie- umm well i really dont know her all that well but she is really cool as far as i know

Ever "spilled the beans"?
- ya i think everyone has

What were you doing at midnight last night?
- talking on line

What did your last text message you received say?
- it was jiffer telling me he was 10 ft away from fall out boy.. haha

Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?
- no well sometimes

What's a saying that you say a lot?
- umm ?? im not really sure

Who told you they loved you last?
- ERIKA HOOVER!!

Last furry thing you touched?
- umm i really dont know..

How many hours a week do you work?
- about 1-2 hours

How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
- none but my sister needs one

Favorite age you have been so far?
- i dont know now is a good age bc i can drive

Your worst enemy?
- no comment please

ok well that was fun. haha im watching vics wedding tape its quote interesting. the reception is on now. Its weird but its cool. So ya i have noticed everything i write in here is like bad. and sad. so sorry about that but i hate telling ppl things like thatso its easier to write him in here i guess.. i dont know. ive been in a bad mood recently like i can have fun and stuff but deep down im in a really bad mood. i dont know why tho but its kinda scaring me. but other then that um im scared really scared. I ran into someone i knew at starbucks today and she asked about my grandma which means mike told her but i mean she was worried and shit and i think mike and my parents know something i dont. and its scaring me. I dont know tho we will see i guess. other then that i hate the fact i cant talk to someone when like they are bothering me or i want to tell them something they are doing that is bothering me. Im always afraid they will take it the wrong way so i just keep it all in. it goes away in time so it isnt that bad but i dont know. watever tho

last night was LAGUNA BEACH!! yess it was the best hour of my life i think. haha it was really cool. im hoping every monday to get together with a couple friends to watch it but i dont know if that will work or not. today i had to go back to the Y for conditioning it was rough today but oh well. i got to see erika. i picked her up and started screaming, i missed her so much! then we went to my aunts but first we went to starbucks then to my aunts. it was swerioulsy so much fun! me and her need to hang out sometime she is so funny. I think me taking her to practice really brought us closer then we would have been without that. Then i came home and watched this tape.

Ally leaves tomorrow morning :-( im sad i couldnt go to her party last night. i couldnt find the house. i drove by tho. Me and her talked about someone and i think it helped both of us out, we knew where we were both coming from. It was nice to talk to her. Im sad i didnt get to hang out with her or anything tho... but she will def have to keep in touch :-) have fun ally i love you and will miss you!

ok well im going to go shower before i go pick my dad up for work then back to cheerleading practice tonite! haha yesss!! who knows what after. probably nothing haha. ok well ill complain in here some other time. haha bye

i forgot i found out today that jim has swam with michael phelps! how freaking awesome is that. well i thought it was pretty sweet! In a perfect world, there would be no need for mirrors because each and ever girl would have a guy to tell her she's beautiful..

ahh i hate thinking....

2005-07-25T16:15:58Z

last update was wednesday? i really dont remember but im going to start with thursday i guess. Um i dont know what i did all day i think just kinda sat around and got ready to leave. and i went to vics house and he made dinner then we packed up the car and waited for jamie! So she came and we got everyone in the car and we left. It was an interesting ride. My job was to stay up and talk to victor and keep him up bc he knows that im really good at that =) We got stuck in traffic and just so everyone knows victor + traffic=BAD! haha for a straight hour we sat there and listened to victor bitch the entire hour. It was entertaining. haha so we finally got to my aunts house around 1:30ish. so then we werent tired and we just kinda ate while everyone else was sleeping. haha but then that was about it. So then friday we all woke up at 7:30 dont ask why. So i had about 3 hours of sleep. then friday i went up to Miami of Ohio with my uncle to look around. Its a beautiful school. The campus was so pretty. i loved it. So then we just got back and layed by the pool it was so nice. I didnt have to worry about anything. It felt so nice. So then me and and gina my three year old cousin took a nap. She was so cute. So then everyone was there when i woke up from my nap. That night was interesting. But anyways saturday i woke up and got in my bathing suit and just layed out and swam. then i took a nap and then later on i went to mike appartment and saw that then we looked at the Xavier campus. I serioulsy love Xavier. I might go there i just love it there. So then we came back and ate and stuff and then went swimming then i played corn hole! everyone who hasnt played that yet needs to play. It might be the absolute best game ever. haha its so much fun. So ya then i went to bed and sunday we woke up and came back to youngstown. Then we went to wendys and went back to vics. Then i took a nap. haha surpise suprise. so then jame took me home and i went and cleaned the office then came home and showered. um after that ash called and me and her went out. It was fun then i came home and thought a lot.

we got bad new on my grandma and when she went in the hospital about a week ago i said that i had a bad feeling that something was going to happen. But someone convinced me i was wrong, but i wasnt. So if everyone can say a prayer for her i would greatly appreciate it. She is my last grandparent and we dont see her enough and im afraid its too late too change that. I just hope everything goes ok.....=(

thinking . . .

2005-07-20T16:07:54Z

alrite lets see i spent about 2 days at ashleys. It was fun we went swimming and layed out. It was a good time. Then she brought me home yesterday in the morning bc she had to go to work. So i came home and cleaned my room and stuff. Carrie came down a little later so me and her took marnie to practice then picked my mother up at work and then we went back and picked marnie up. Then kara came and picked me up and we went to handels then took it to bri i serioulsy love that girl . She is so funny!! :-) So then we went to karas where genna and kyle came!! omg i missed kyle i <3 him. haha he is so funny and of course i love genna she is the best. haha Ya but i dont know it was really tired and jsut kinda wanted to go home so kar took me home around 11:30ish. So i came home and i was really tired but in a bad mood for some reason so i couldnt go to sleep. But i probably shouldnt have been online bc it didnt help my night.. i just got hit with things that then i couldnt get off my mind and i still cant. I feel bad about everything. I wish i could take some of the stuff i did back but i cant. So i just have to deal with what happend and fix it the best way i can. So if you are reading this im sorry. Im going to try and fix it the best i can. But ya then ash and jiffer played a trick on me and i was confused and stuff and i dont even really know now what is going on with that. But ya after thinking and like crying last night i went to bed at about 2:45ish and carly woke me up at 10:30. Im still really tired i need to sleep. i kinda wanted to go up to the hospital today but that doesnt seem like its going to work out since my brother and dad are already up there. But today i have to start packing a little bit i guess. Im leaving tomorrow for Cinncy. We are going to visit my aunt do the whole Christmas in July again i think. But umm mi get to see mikes new house or apartment or watever it is. So that is exciting. Im driving down with vic, jamie, and the dog. haha oh god that should be interesting haha but ya ill probably update this when i get home on sunday or maybe tomorrow or something but everyone have a good weekend :-)